I stand here as if I just got off the train! Alone drowning
in my thoughts; the train cuts through the night, racing against the trees, and
exploiting the rails. The train just keeps gaining speed, right past me!
Pushing the cool air hard against my face! I look for an answer in the midnight
air; maybe there’s an answer in the trees dancing & swinging against the
black of night! I ask out loud “What was all that about?” All I know it’s time
to rest my face, and give some peace to this mind!
I lay next to the fire (in my mind) and I began to sort out all
that remains: the unspoken, the broken, and the empty without purpose. Here I
am, I see the sleek rusted steel train. Massive in sight, strong, cold, fast,
isolated in solitary ….rushing forward…achieving its mission! Here I am, alone in
peace, silence & thoughts. From the sky above, I see the meaning falling
from the stars. My eyes are sleepy, and I don’t quite understand! Here I am but
where is here? The concept of control fades in & out of my collected memory!
I gaze up at the stars, the dust (of the stars) fall down onto my face. I just
sit, and take it in. Perhaps this is the meaning I am searching for!
I remain to be free;
I wash the mud off my face. Place every strain of hair out of my eyes; up in a ponytail.
This exhausted smile can’t remain. I tell my inner soul “nothing is gained
without courage”. I am still lost. I try
to capture the meaning like butterflies (flying above within reach of
your fingertips) in the sky! Will I ever find meaning from what just happened?
I don’t know but it’s time to go! One last solid breath….I grab on and the train takes me away!
